Off Topic With Ashley

I’m so tired, and it’s possibly a form of transient day-to-day burnout. I’ve been busy at work, and while I don’t directly have a lot of responsibility, I’ve got an awful, awful lot to do. I’m loving it, but it’s wreaking havoc with my lifestyle.

To be frank, I am sick of going out. This weekend was supposed to be “empty” for me to do with as I pleased. I was planning on working on my side-project and catching up with business and life. Instead I ended up going out twice, watching television, and feeling a dread weight on my chest and shoulders every time I tried to do anything remotely work-related.

It seems the only thing I’m capable of doing outside of work hours is sitting down and tuning out. I now fully get the concept of the nine-to-five grind, but to me it feels more like a week-long affair. I’ve been assured it’s normal, but I do so want to shake it. We’ll see how willpower goes with that.

Nevertheless I’ve been enjoying life. I started riding to work again at the start of the week despite not feeling confident enough to do so, and I also had another less serious accident involving speed, broken concrete, and a footbridge. I’ve been putting a number of skills to use in this new job that I haven’t used for quite a while, but even though it’s a good challenge I’m going to have to actively work to keep my skill set up to date. I’m not really looking forward to the unbearably smug “I told you so” that this revelation is going to bring my way.

Tomorrow is full of visiting people and drinking cheap booze. I’m going to enjoy this immensely, although deep inside I’d much rather just stay in bed all day with my laptop.